(three postings in one day, you can tell i'm bored...)
 
sometimes i wish i could be a rock star, or an actress. but that would require getting rid of all my inhibitions, which has proven to be very difficult. but mv, richie, and i were sitting at dinner this week and she pointed out how much i've changed since high school, and how i've actually obtained some social skills. here's how part of the conversation went:
 
richie: so are you glad that you decided to go to northwestern rather than william and mary?
tv: definitely.
r: why?
tv: well... because it's good that i'm not close to home.
r: wow, i'm sure your parents would be glad to hear that.
mv: no, they know that it's good for her to be independent. you don't understand, before she left, she couldn't even order food by herself.
 
and as much as i hate to remember that, it's true. i was so shy that i could barely speak to waiters in restaurants. i got better freshman year of college, but meghan still remembers me as being pretty quiet. in london, however, meredith said she couldn't imagine me being anything but bubbly and outgoing (london was like summer camp, where you knew that it was for a short period of time, so you could be weird and crazy and not have to see those people again). that's a huge leap for me. i still feel awkward in some situations, but i do a better job of covering it up now. and while i'll always be a little timid, i hope that ultimately i can be comfortable and confident in my own skin.