sometimes i read things on my blog and think, "wow, i am such a dork," or, "i must've been on crack when i wrote that." i know that i shouldn't be embarrassed because hardly anyone reads this, and those that do already know how weird i am, but i can't help wishing that i had some control over my online verbal diarrhea. but i guess this blog is more about letting myself vent and recording snippets of my life than it is about writing an entertaining novel for an audience (i could never be as amusing as bridget jones). since i've never been a diary/journal person, this is the next best (albeit more public) thing. and it does help me realize how lame i can be, so i can try my best to improve myself.